I go to an all girls school, I don't know how to act around guys.
I am naturally an awkward person, even with my closest friends I'm always awkward, can you imagine how even more awkward I was when I tried to start talking to him...
Our formal was this Friday, my dad asked if any of my friends were taking any guys, and how I didn't. And he talked about how he was like me. In High School he was probably the only guy in his group of friends who didn't have a girlfriend. But I told him that after he was patient, he found my mum, and she has to be the prettiest and the nicest person ever!
I guess from that I learnt that you have to be patient, sometimes. Good things come when you wait.
My brother's getting married at the end of this year, I'm pretty much left lonely in the family. My dad and the stepmum, my brother and his new wife. My dad said that I should find someone, but I go to an all girls school I don't even know any guys! Even moreso, I don't know how to act around them!
And a few years ago, my cousin and I were describing our "dream guys", our "Mr. Right", I described it to her and she said: "You'd have to search all over the world to find that guy!" I guess because my description was very specific and yeah it is probably really hard to find such a person/unrealistic.
BUT, only a few months after, I found him. I didn't know at first, but I don't know what, a few days later something struck me. He fitted most of my description perfectly. There are some things that I still don't know about him though... so I don't know if he is exactly 100% of my definition of perfect.
I always think to myself, what is love, love sucks, I don't know how to love, I don't need to love. But just with being left lonely in my family, and just hearing my friends talk about how they're so much happier, etc. I kinda WANT to be in love.
That guy has probably forgotten me, but whatever. I just want someone who you can turn to when you're feeling down and he'll always be there for you. It shouldn't matter if I'm an awkward person and sometimes what I say doesn't make sense, he should understand me.
Idk, idk. ~Love~ is a really weird thing I don't understand, but I want to learn about what it is. I want to understand ~love~.
Sunday, May 29, 2011
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Think before you say
People should think about what they say or even type before letting it out/sending it.
People have to stop and think about how the person at the other end will feel upon receiving what was said to them.
You can't say to someone you don't even know. Someone on Tumblr or Twitter- "you're ugly." because you don't know if that person is insecure and she has depression because she really cares about how people see her.
You can't say to someone "you're dumb" because you don't know that that person has tried all her best to study but just can't get anything in.
It doesn't matter who the person is. It doesn't matter if you're a random person who has nothing better to do or you are Stephen Hawking, a world renowned physicist.
He said that there is no heaven, and that people only believe that because they fear death.
What does he know. No one living at the moment knows if there is a heaven or not. Yes, he is smart, but he's never died and gone back to life again. He does not know. And yes, there is the freedom of speech, he does have the right to say whatever he wants but he should really think about how his statement would make people like me feel.
I have lost many people close to me. I truly believe there is a heaven, and I truly believe that I would meet them again some day, one day.
On Twitter both 'Stephen Hawking' and '#disrespectful' were trending so I tweeted 'Stephen Hawking's statement is #disrespectful. I'm offended.'. And some stupid person whose username is "davetheatheist" replied, asking me "Why are you offended by the truth? #atheism"
And so I said: Truth doesn't offend me. Stephen Hawking's prevarication does. and he goes on to reply
"There wasn't anything false about what he said. There is no heaven. There is no God. Simple as that. Just truth."
I replied:
Your "truth" is different to my "truth". Please leave me alone now.
and he still wouldn't leave me alone!
"Truth is objective. Our truths are the same. Let's not pretend you're a relativist."
to which I replied saying "You know nothing about me." and blocked him.
The fact that he wastes this time by searching through the tracked tags and replying to people who don't share the same views as he does and replies to them and adding the tag #atheism is really sad. By tagging #atheism is he trying to promote it and get people to convert to it? Atheism isn't a religion. And I was of course offended, he does not know anything about me and no one should ever start arguing with me because they will later regret the consequences.
Basically, what I'm saying is- yes there is the freedom of speech but you have got to think about people's feelings before you say anything. You don't know anyone, how they feel, what they've been through, etc. You wouldn't stab someone in the heart for no reason, other than self defense if your life is at risk. And so you shouldn't say hurtful things on the internet or in real life because that is the same as stabbing someone in the heart, and you have no reason to do so.
People have to stop and think about how the person at the other end will feel upon receiving what was said to them.
You can't say to someone you don't even know. Someone on Tumblr or Twitter- "you're ugly." because you don't know if that person is insecure and she has depression because she really cares about how people see her.
You can't say to someone "you're dumb" because you don't know that that person has tried all her best to study but just can't get anything in.
It doesn't matter who the person is. It doesn't matter if you're a random person who has nothing better to do or you are Stephen Hawking, a world renowned physicist.
He said that there is no heaven, and that people only believe that because they fear death.
What does he know. No one living at the moment knows if there is a heaven or not. Yes, he is smart, but he's never died and gone back to life again. He does not know. And yes, there is the freedom of speech, he does have the right to say whatever he wants but he should really think about how his statement would make people like me feel.
I have lost many people close to me. I truly believe there is a heaven, and I truly believe that I would meet them again some day, one day.
On Twitter both 'Stephen Hawking' and '#disrespectful' were trending so I tweeted 'Stephen Hawking's statement is #disrespectful. I'm offended.'. And some stupid person whose username is "davetheatheist" replied, asking me "Why are you offended by the truth? #atheism"
And so I said: Truth doesn't offend me. Stephen Hawking's prevarication does. and he goes on to reply
"There wasn't anything false about what he said. There is no heaven. There is no God. Simple as that. Just truth."
I replied:
Your "truth" is different to my "truth". Please leave me alone now.
and he still wouldn't leave me alone!
"Truth is objective. Our truths are the same. Let's not pretend you're a relativist."
to which I replied saying "You know nothing about me." and blocked him.
The fact that he wastes this time by searching through the tracked tags and replying to people who don't share the same views as he does and replies to them and adding the tag #atheism is really sad. By tagging #atheism is he trying to promote it and get people to convert to it? Atheism isn't a religion. And I was of course offended, he does not know anything about me and no one should ever start arguing with me because they will later regret the consequences.
Basically, what I'm saying is- yes there is the freedom of speech but you have got to think about people's feelings before you say anything. You don't know anyone, how they feel, what they've been through, etc. You wouldn't stab someone in the heart for no reason, other than self defense if your life is at risk. And so you shouldn't say hurtful things on the internet or in real life because that is the same as stabbing someone in the heart, and you have no reason to do so.
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