I go against the current of the waters
What is popular, or what is the trend
I go my own way
I do not follow what other people are doing
For I am not them, I am myself
And what is life, to follow?
You lead your own life, not theirs, but yours alone
An example of this in our modern society today;
Mainstream music is the music that is played on the radio
These days people intend to not go with the popular flow,
And listen to 'Indie' music, where they are unknown independent bands
Nowadays, if you listen to 'indie' music, you are regarded as cool
So, what's the point?
Oh so you listen to indie music because you prefer to stand out, and be cool? But being cool is the trend!
And what's the point of listening to 'indie' music only so you can be labeled as 'cool' but don't genuinely enjoy listening to it?!
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Saturday, October 9, 2010
Home
Remember how a few days back I said, I wanted to leave home as soon as I can.
Well, I had a second thought.
A few weeks ago I went to visit my cousin, who had previously been living in Indonesia with her parents. I cannot say she wasn't spoiled. Anything she wanted, she received.
Just last year, she moved here to study, but just recently, she moved in an apartment with a housemate.
I went and visited that place. I must say, it has the facilities of a hotel, and it looks awfully expensive to rent that place. But it has no homey feeling about it, you know. The kind of emotion or feeling you get when you get home. You might think, well it's not my home, hence I wouldn't get that feeling, but even if I go to someone's house, I sometimes would get that feeling.
Just not this time. It was a tiny confined space. Only the essential things are there, no luxury.
Then I thought, this isn't the kind of life I want when I move out. So, why was I thinking of moving out in the first place?
I love my home. It's just that I don't feel comfortable here anymore, ever since my stepmum moved in. Life has been very different.
Ugh. Different unpleasant smells, unpleasant sounds, and unpleasant surroundings. I have to be careful where I place my belongings, because she might take it, or might throw it away, etc. I don't feel comfortable living in my own house!
I want the past to come back.
I want my childhood to come back.
Will that ever happen?
I do not know.
My memories are erased.
Why can't we turn back time.
Time scares me.
I want my home back.
Home, with all five members of my family present.
My father, my mother, and my two brothers. Reunited again, and living happily together again, eternally. :)
Well, I had a second thought.
A few weeks ago I went to visit my cousin, who had previously been living in Indonesia with her parents. I cannot say she wasn't spoiled. Anything she wanted, she received.
Just last year, she moved here to study, but just recently, she moved in an apartment with a housemate.
I went and visited that place. I must say, it has the facilities of a hotel, and it looks awfully expensive to rent that place. But it has no homey feeling about it, you know. The kind of emotion or feeling you get when you get home. You might think, well it's not my home, hence I wouldn't get that feeling, but even if I go to someone's house, I sometimes would get that feeling.
Just not this time. It was a tiny confined space. Only the essential things are there, no luxury.
Then I thought, this isn't the kind of life I want when I move out. So, why was I thinking of moving out in the first place?
I love my home. It's just that I don't feel comfortable here anymore, ever since my stepmum moved in. Life has been very different.
Ugh. Different unpleasant smells, unpleasant sounds, and unpleasant surroundings. I have to be careful where I place my belongings, because she might take it, or might throw it away, etc. I don't feel comfortable living in my own house!
I want the past to come back.
I want my childhood to come back.
Will that ever happen?
I do not know.
My memories are erased.
Why can't we turn back time.
Time scares me.
I want my home back.
Home, with all five members of my family present.
My father, my mother, and my two brothers. Reunited again, and living happily together again, eternally. :)
voetbal talk
FOOTBALL CLUBS
1. Arsenal
2. Bayern Munich
NATIONAL TEAMS
1. Netherlands
2. Germany
UNPOPULAR OPINION TIME
I do not like;
-Messi
-Spain NT (except Cesc)
-Barcelona FC
Friday, October 8, 2010
Reincarnation
Yesterday, on my way home to school, on the tram I heard these two girls talking, at the tram stop, and I overheard the conversation, where one girl said, "I think I was a dog in my past life."
And I stopped to think.
"Hm, that person believes in reincarnation. There are more people in this world who believe in reincarnation that I expected."
I personally do not believe in reincarnation.
I was raised as a Buddhist though, where they believe that life is like a wheel, it never stops, when you die, you are born again, but in a different form, whether you are a human, or an animal.
This is the sad thing, they believe sinners are to be reincarnated into an animal, or something bad/worse in the next life, to punish what they did in the previous life.
I remember being told this when I was young. I probably did something rude, like talk back to older people, and it was believed that if you sinned using your mouth (rude, hurt people through your words, etc,), you were to be reincarnated into a fish, as their mouths keep on moving, and never shuts. And other animals, I cannot remember at this instance, but it used to scare me.
I too am scared, writing this at this very moment. Saying how I do not believe, but I am scared. What if it is true. I certainly hope not though, because then what are we living for?
It worries me that what I do now, will affect my "next life".
It is also believed that people who have diseases, or are unfortunate, are poor, etc. is because of what they did in the previous life. The question is, how is it fair that we should be punished in the next life because of what we did previously. What if we weren't informed about reincarnation. Like, it is coincidental, that I have been informed and educated about the belief of reincarnation, in this life, but then if I didn't, and I sinned, then I will receive my punishments and suffer in the next life, where our memories are erased, where we don't know why.
This really scares me.
Ugh, this whole thing about the after life scares me.
Maybe it's my lack of sleep that makes me think of strange things I do not even want to think about.
And I stopped to think.
"Hm, that person believes in reincarnation. There are more people in this world who believe in reincarnation that I expected."
I personally do not believe in reincarnation.
I was raised as a Buddhist though, where they believe that life is like a wheel, it never stops, when you die, you are born again, but in a different form, whether you are a human, or an animal.
This is the sad thing, they believe sinners are to be reincarnated into an animal, or something bad/worse in the next life, to punish what they did in the previous life.
I remember being told this when I was young. I probably did something rude, like talk back to older people, and it was believed that if you sinned using your mouth (rude, hurt people through your words, etc,), you were to be reincarnated into a fish, as their mouths keep on moving, and never shuts. And other animals, I cannot remember at this instance, but it used to scare me.
I too am scared, writing this at this very moment. Saying how I do not believe, but I am scared. What if it is true. I certainly hope not though, because then what are we living for?
It worries me that what I do now, will affect my "next life".
It is also believed that people who have diseases, or are unfortunate, are poor, etc. is because of what they did in the previous life. The question is, how is it fair that we should be punished in the next life because of what we did previously. What if we weren't informed about reincarnation. Like, it is coincidental, that I have been informed and educated about the belief of reincarnation, in this life, but then if I didn't, and I sinned, then I will receive my punishments and suffer in the next life, where our memories are erased, where we don't know why.
This really scares me.
Ugh, this whole thing about the after life scares me.
Maybe it's my lack of sleep that makes me think of strange things I do not even want to think about.
Monday, October 4, 2010
Venice
I can imagine my self living in Venice.
A city with no roads, just water.
There would be no transportation pollution, except only the small amount from the motorised boats perhaps, but I do not see why anyone would choose to travel in a motorised vehicle, in a city such as Venice.
Things are meant to go slowly.
There is no time.
No rush.
Just relax.
It would be nice as well, since my legs are not one hundred percent perfect, it would be nice to having not care to over-tire my legs, just sit and paddle gondolas.
Sway with the waters, paddle with the sound of the birds.
A city with no roads, just water.
There would be no transportation pollution, except only the small amount from the motorised boats perhaps, but I do not see why anyone would choose to travel in a motorised vehicle, in a city such as Venice.
Things are meant to go slowly.
There is no time.
No rush.
Just relax.
It would be nice as well, since my legs are not one hundred percent perfect, it would be nice to having not care to over-tire my legs, just sit and paddle gondolas.
Sway with the waters, paddle with the sound of the birds.
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